Writing poems is easy, just let the words flow. But editing it is tough! (-.-‘)
I throughout my life have been struggling with self hatred.
Any over weight person out there will understand what I am saying. Being fat doesn’t just make you unhealthy but leaves you hating yourself more and more everyday. You start isolating yourself.
I was an overweight child and at that age the children around you aren’t old enough to understand what it feels like when they shout out fatso on top of their voice. You cry and cry in a corner. But you say you are strong and fake a smile and make it seem like everything is alright but your heart knows its not. When your mom asks you is everything alright and you breakdown. You don’t want to go to school. You don’t want to go shopping. You cry in the trial rooms because you are a child but have to wear adult clothes. You shy away from wearing shorts. You shy away from talking to people, making friends because you think all they will see is the fat and not the real you.
But wait. You lost yourself in the journey itself. You now hate yourself. The thoughts inside you don’t reflect the other person’s thought about you but your own! You lost your confidence, your carefree nature, your love for yourself!
All you see you see yourself as is a fat ball.
Now you have to find yourself! Accept who you are and appreciate that.
I had lost myself in the rush of life.
I didn’t have very many friends. I didn’t have a person I could cry my heart out to. I was fat!
I thought me being fat was the reason everyone left me. But I was wrong! The only reason people left me was that I hated myself. All I did was rant!
I hated everyone around me because I hated myself!
But then I had enough of it.
I was no more gonna cry myself to sleep.
I was no more gonna cry for the guy who doesn’t even care.
I was no more gonna cry sor the guy in class that made me feel bad about me.
I was no more gonna cry for the friends that betrayed.
I was no more gonna cry for ths girls who bitched about my weight.
I was no more gonna hate me!!
I just did 2 things which actually boasted my confidence, my love for myself.
(P.S they are weird but you have to try this if you are struggling with self acceptance)
- Stand stark naked in front of the mirror. Stare.
The first few weeks you might not like what you see. you would hate yourself but still do it everyday. You reach a point when you actually start appreciating yourself. You start loving your curves, the flaws, the way your body is crafted. Each flaw, each curve, each mark is a part of you, appreciate it and love yourself. Love the way you are, because if you don’t love the body you are in, you wouldn’t be able to craft it the way you want. may it be gaining muscle or losing weight.
- Dance and sing like no ones watching.
I actually mean it!
Lock yourself in a room, turn the music on and start rolling!
I like it when the lights are turned off, in the dark.
Dance to any song, just any! Sing on top of your lungs!
It is a party with your body, soul and mind. They are connecting to one another. Admiring each other and falling in love.
Just sway away!!
You are unique, there is no one out there like you. You are you!
I do! I love myself, though I always would have a regret of not falling in love with myself before. I mean hating yourself is such a painful feeling while loving yourself is the best feeling ever. I regret the time wasted in self hatred.
If you don’t love yourself, you can’t love any one.
You have to accept yourself before wanting to be accepted.
Thank You 🙂
Happy NEW YEAR!!
2014 has finally come to an end and 2015 has come bringing new hopes and surprises wrapped for us.
Without saying much, here are 5 reasons you should be excited for New Year,
- New Years are a fresh start! Failures, heart breaks, disappointments, etc. kiss everything goodbye! You are stronger and more experienced, you have learned from your mistakes and from others mistakes, take control of your life because it is a new start, it is NEW YEAR!
- Resolutions. Well not pondering much on this one but this year you might, just might keep your resolution this year and not break it. What do you think? Is there a chance? 😛
- You should celebrate the fact that you survived another year like a fighter!
- New Year money! Receiving money is always exciting 😀 !
- New Years means Parties! So that is reason enough!
I hope you enjoyed!
Love & Peace :*
Thank You ❤
“Tomorrow, is the first blank page of a 365 page book. Write a good one.”
― Brad Paisley
P.S. PARTY SAFE, BECAUSE I LOVE YOU!
“ALL YOU NEED IN LIFE IS LOVE” and I stand by it!
I have heard many people say that ‘no, love is not what you need, love doesn’t help you survive, it doesn’t pay your bills, etc.’
Do you agree? Atleast I don’t.
Love, helps you stay sane in times of crisis because you know there is someone you can pour your heart to, someone is there to hug you and tell you that every storm ends with a bright day. Love makes you strong, it encourages you to follow your dreams, it stands by you on the bumpy roads of achieving your dreams.
Love doesn’t pay your bills but it makes you realise your worth and what you are made of, which pushes you forward, nearer to success. It makes you feel complete!
It may be wife-love, husband-love, boyfriend-love, girlfriend-love, friend-love, mother-love, child-love, father-love, any-love! JUST UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!
They may not understand what you are going through, why you are doing a certain thing, but they will always be there to support you and guide you!
Love is not materialistic, you can not compare it to mere things like paying bills, it is felt with all 5 senses!
Thank You! ❤
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PLEASE JOIN THE MOVEMENT!!
Well having a guy best friend is really fun and amazing, and to be frank this is something many people can relate to. So without saying anything further here are 5 reasons why having a guy friend is amazing,
- Egos don’t clash. A guy’s ego clashes with his guy friend, a girl’s ego clashes with her girl friend but in case of a guy-gal friend, egos rarely clash. Continuing from that, fights are never THAT serious (most of them), but even if they are serious, things solve pretty easily as there is no ego problem as compared to a fight with one of your female friends.
- A guy friend is the best person to discuss about your boy friend problems as he will be able to tell you what’s going in his mind, I mean being a guy they would think similarly.
- Talking is easier. You aren’t continuing bitching about someone like gal friends do, which leads to mental peace (I mean I end up having a headache if I continue bitching for a long time, I don’t like it at all!).
- You don’t have to give him gifts, even if it is his birthday (well its true in my case).
- You can discuss about sex with him freely. Ask queries about things related to it. Its like seeing sex by a guy’s point of view.
“A good friend will come and bail you out of jail, but a best friend will be sitting next to you saying, ‘Damn, that was fun’!”
― Kate Angell, Curveball
THANK YOU…!! ❤
“Seeing longtime couples break up reminds me of what is so often forgotten…that love, relationship love, is an ultra-marathon, not a sprint, and far too many lack the stamina and dedication to keep running together…maybe it means it wasn’t true love, or maybe it just means it’s easier to quit than to keep going, I don’t know, but since I am single I am thinking this is a good place to stay for awhile and if I ever do sign up for another marathon I hope I will be able to see that stamina and dedication in my partner before we begin to run together so that we don’t end up running away from each other.”
― Christian Pilosi
According to me you can be anything for the person you love. If I love someone I would be a sister to him if he wants, go away from him if he wants, be his best friend, anything if thats what he wants and if thats what makes him happy. Your happiness doesn’t matter then. Its second priority. Thats why people say love only happens once. You can give so much selflessly to just one love interest in a lifetime. If you don’t get him and are in a relashionship or married to someone else you are a bit greedy a bit selffish. You WANT the love now you WANT the attention. If I don’t get that person, because you can’t force anyone to fall for you, I would cherish the time we had spent together, be happy that he is happy. At least in future I can say i loved this person truly and purely without any demands. The point is that to me love is soul not life as other people say. For me he is my soul, once the soul is lost my body shall live, my heart shall beat but my soul shall die.
Everyone has different point of views on love and everyone is correct.
THANK YOU. ❤
“Words can be twisted into any shape. Promises can be made to lull the heart and seduce the soul. In the final analysis, words mean nothing. They are labels we give things in an effort to wrap our puny little brains around their underlying natures, when ninety-nine percent of the time the totality of the reality is an entirely different beast. The wisest man is the silent one. Examine his actions. Judge him by them.”
― Karen Marie Moning
2014 is here!
Last year for everyone was full of happiness and sadness, some lost closed ones and the others greeted new members in the family. An year is a long time, we fight, we cry, we celebrate, we make bonds, we meet new people, etc. and then that year ends and another year comes bringing new hopes, new aspirations, etc. People make resolutions, some follow, some break them. People think of it as a new beginning and give a deep thought on what they have done and what they will do, they promise to change for good and promise to make a change. It basically gives a new hope and motivation to people who are sad and a new aim.
For me it is basically a hope to survive a hope that everything would be the way it was. 2013 has been a very weird year for me. The first half was really good while the second half was not that good. I CHANGED, I started hating myself, while I used to love me. I don’t know how this happened but I am still fighting to love me again. I became depressed. I couldn’t even expect anyone to understand me because I couldn’t understand myself, I still don’t. I don’t know what I want! Hence, it was a very depressing stage for me. NEW YEAR has given me hope that yes this year would be different.
For everyone who is struggling with depression I would just say that this year would be different and a much happier one.
“For last year’s words belong to last year’s language
And next year’s words await another voice.”
― T.S. Eliot, Four Quartets
A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!
THANK YOU. 🙂 ❤
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